May Saint Valentines Protect You
There’s enough space between us for me to put space between these lines
Too soon was the day you left
In an age where nobody had thousands of photos of silly things,
nobody had a photo of us
I forget how your face was,
I hold on to the memory that your hair was light brown,
your teeth weren’t straight
You were born under a fire sign
Like everybody else who would eventually break my heart,
you were the first
In so many ways more than being my first friend
Every April I remember you, every 04/04
Sometimes I cross paths with people who remind me of you,
eleven years after you left I still wonder what you would look like now
Would we still be friends?
Would I still lose my mind with you?
Would you still break my heart if you were here?
I’ll never know what your face would look like if you were 24
Or 30, 50, 70 years old
I’ll never know you past 13
And every time life reminders me of it, part of me dies a little inside
It travels to the place where you’re now
I don’t want to say goodbye again
Please, still come back to me
In dreams, in my memory
In every color red I see
In every April
In every person who looks like you, but will never be you
